Durian's Heaven !

ATIQAH'S HOUSE -NEAR 'DUSUN DURIAN'-

  UTP's PARK

The Scars is Painful

This past weeks, things have been very up and down.

When people say "grief comes in waves" - they know what they're talking about.

Sometimes, when you just sit there - you realize what's missing and why there's a new found gigantic hole in your heart - you realize that this massive void in your life is there to say, because at the end of the day, what it represents is something that is never coming back. There are many times in life when people lose something they once had.

Whether it's money, love, possessions or death. 

When this time comes, it's when people are truly made. The feeling of being encapsulated by something painful.

And when I say "pain" - I mean anyone's pain.

Because the thing with pain is, it's relative.

Pain is relative to the person feeling it.

It's not something that can be competed. 

Everyone feels pain and no one can compare their pain to the pain of others because we all feel it differently. 

Anyway, that feeling of encapsulation, the feeling like someone is literally sitting on your chest and squeezing what remains of the pieces of your heart that you're trying so desperately to put back together, that is enough to place a permanent scar on your heart. 

That scar on your heart changes who you are and who you were before. 

The scar on your heart that is there because of something you had. 

Something you're grateful to have had in the first place.

That scar recognizes the absence of what was and the reality of what is now.

p/s : I just can't pretend I don't miss you...

Boleh tak kalau nak pergi Kursus Kahwin ? ;)

 

tak de kene mengena dgn gamba di atas ye :)

Boleh tak kalau nak pergi KK (Kursus Kahwin?)

haha, boleh kan, boleh kan?

21, kira cukup umur la kan? :P

ngeeee , calon pun tak ada lagi, GATAL NAAAAAAaaaa ;)

wedding oh wedding !

Hye my readers !

Sihat tak semua hari ni? 

Moga-moga sihat la ye :)

So, hari ni hari Ahad.

And hari ni sangat memenatkan !

Why?

Sebab hari ni wedding Sir Sayed Kushairi & Mdm Bushra :)

Setelah lama membujang sir sayed kita ni, akhirnya dia mendirikan rumah tangga jugak ye? 

Heeee, so today kami berkonvoi ke Sg.Siput untuk menghadiri kenduri perkahwinan Sir Sayed.

Walaupun tak berapa nak ramai yg dtg, tapi meriah sungguh!

sebab pe?

sebab ade mcm-mcm persembahan, sampai kiteorang nak bergamba atas pelamin pun payah! 

Ade breakdance,silat and nyanyian.

And guess what?

I think semua persembahan tu student UiTM yg buat.

Beruntung betul kan Sir Sayed, ramai yg sudi buat persembahan demi perkahwinan dia. Ahakz !

Sampai pengacara majlis pun di import dr UiTM juga ;)

Agak lama jugak la kiteorang dekat sana, daripada pukul 12 sampai la pukul 3 mcm tu.

Then singgah rumah Amni, solat Zohor jap, pastu heading to JJ Ipoh, main bowling ramai-ramai dengan berbaju kurung, haha. Lawak lawak !

First time kot main bowling pakai baju kurung, dah la first time ila main bowling sepanjang 3 tahun dekat Perak ni, mmg pecah rekod la !

Mata semua memandang je time kiteorang main bowling, haha, pedulik ape kan?

Lepas tu kiteorang solat Asar jap, then makan kt McD, penat kot main bowling dengan berbaju kurung, dgn kain yg sempit nye lg, nak bukak kaki besar-besar pun payah tau! (no wonder bola asek masuk longkang je ;P)

dah puas makan McD, ade yg meluangkan masa shopping dekat Vincci pulak, kasut murah-murah kot, sale dyeorang ckp.

Tapi da sengkek ni, tak teringin la tengok, kang mata rambang, sakit hati pulak kan tak dpt beli.

haha :P

Afta dat, around 6.30 ptg mcm tu kiteorang blk, sampai UiTM pukul 7.40 mlm mcm tu.

Memang sgt penat la, tp driver mesti lg penat kan?

heee, thanks Amni for the ride :)

Malam ni nak kene siapkan keje yg bertimbun pulak.

FAR,MAF,ETR, nak study untuk kuiz MAF lg hari selasa ni, makkkkk aihhhh !

Tu la, enjoy sakan tak ingat dunia. haha

btw, terlupa lak nak ucapkan, SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU SIR SAYED!

Semoga bahagia disamping Pn.Bushra sehingga ke akhir hayat :)

Sampai disini saja la ye entry ila kali ni.

Later-later ila post lg :)

p/s : have so much fun today with PUP's and Zairah and pai,bentong,amzar,and yus ;)

Cute Miut & Generation of DIA :)

Hye guys & girls !

Cute kan anak kucing dekat pics atas tu?

My new kittens :)

Disebabkan baby cat dah hilang, so ade la baby cat yg baru.

3 ekor lagi tu!

Sweet kan? 

So adorable !

Rasa mcm nak cubit-cubit je sekor-sekor !

ahakz !

ahha, gamba yg atas ni pulak time Family Day Faculty of Accountancy hari Sabtu yg lepas.

First time dlm sejarah, family day kali ni dalam HUJAN !

Iye, dlm HUJAN !

haha, cuaca tak berapa nak baik hari tu.

So nak tak nak, kene la teruskan, mane boleh nak postpone, ahad confirm tak de sape nak dtg kan? :P

Tapi ila dtg kejap je dat day, because hujan kan?

Kang main game dlm hujan, demam pulak.

Dah la nak kuiz lg selasa ni, mane boleh demam pulak.

Kne jage kesihatan, bukan bgitu? :P

haha, tu yg gambar ila dpt snap sikit je.

Heeee :)

Pape pun food yg dyeorang provide hari tu, mcm HEAVEN la !

sedap mak aihhh, kiteorang pun kalah time kiteorg anjurkan family day dlu.

Maybe dyeorang dpt peruntukan drpd HEP byk kot?

heee, btw, it was a fun, even ila dpt dtg kejap je kan?

Good Work Guys (PART 3)! 

Nanty dinner next sem, food pun mesti heaven gak k?

even akak tak de da kt UiTM Perak next sem, haha, insya Allah :)

hanya mampu ucap MINTA MAAF

Ila minta maaf if ade sape-sape terasa dgn entry ila yg lepas, 

Pernah Korang Kisah?

If andai kata entry ila tu buat korang terkecil hati ke, termakan hati ke kan?

Tp orang ckp kalo kita asek nk jage hati org je, and tak de sape nk jage hati kita, sampai bila-bila kita akan merana.

btol tak?

Tapi papepun, ila minta maaf ye. 

Buang jauh-jauh perasaan tu, ila marah pun tak lama, kejap je. 

Ila tak nak berdendam dengan sape-sape, sebab kalo ila berdendam, sampai bila-bila hidup ila takkan tenteram.

Doa pun Allah tak nak makbulkan nanti.

Sekali lagi, maafkan ila.

Enjoy? Never had .

Orang kate life in university mesti kne enjoy. 

Sebab nanti dah keje, mmg life dah tak boleh nak enjoy da, bz je memanjang dgn keje.

Tp ila rasa sepanjang ila belajar dekat universiti ni, tak pernah pun rasa enjoy.

Kenapa ekh?

Maybe ila sendiri tak reti nak enjoykan diri sendiri agaknya.

Selalu rasa bad mood je. And kwn pun boleh kira dgn jari.

Agaknya sebab tu la x de sape nk approach, ajak enjoy sekali dengan diaorang.

Takpe la, dah last sem dah ni. Nak graduate da pun.

Insya Allah time degree nanti, ila try enjoy kan diri sendiri. Start a new life, with new friends in a new environment. 

Amiinnnnn...

p/s : Burfday nak dekat da... can't wait for it.

Tp mcm ade org nk sambut je my burfday kan? 

Berangan pun jd la.

ACCA or CIMA ? Confused !

hello my readers :)

How are you?

I hope you are doing just fine. 

ngeee, speaking pulak tibe2 hari ni :P

Disebabkan semalam ade misi akademik under Fakulti Perakaunan, tibe2 rase nk speaking pulak kan?

haha, bukan selalu pun. 

So, representatives from ACCA and CIMA, and also from UiTM Shah Alam, regarding the professional certification for accountancy students came to UiTM Seri Iskandar, Perak yesterday.

As u all know, Accountancy is a professional course, so of course la we have our own professional certification such as ACCA or CIMA. And besides that, there are others professional certification that we can take and choose, such as MICPA, CPA, MIT and etc.

And for me, i'm confused whether i wanna take ACCA or CIMA ?

Well actually ACCA stands for The Association of Chartered Certified Accountants, meanwhile CIMA stands for Chartered Institute for Management Accountants.

After all the explanations given by the representatives, i still cannot choose which one is better. Perhaps CIMA i think. If you wanna be an analyst, decision maker, or a specialist in business, investment or whatsoever, CIMA is a better choice compared to ACCA. But if i ask most of the lecturers, maybe they would recommend me to choose ACCA as it is a common thing among accountancy students sit for ACCA exams. And CIMA, it is rare. 

And actually, i have decided to take this professional course during my work time, i mean after i get my degree. As it will cost me about RM5000 just to pay the examination fees. So i have to work in order to pay the fees. But Miss Nabilah said that this exam is not as esay as ABC. It needs a lotof effort, as i need to spend a lot of my time in studying, and if i work at the same time, perhaps i will fail successfully in the exam. 

So, i change my mind, i should continue study after degree. Well if i managed to pass the exams without fail any paper, it will takes only 1 year for me to finish the exam. Miss Nabilah also said that after i get ACCA, there will be a lot of companies that will offer me to work with them. It is a good news actually.

I hope that I will get the grant from UiTM Shah Alam to sponsor me for ACCA exams, or not, i will have to take a loan, ahha :)

And i think, i have made final decision, that i have to stay continue my degree in UiTM Shah Alam as i will only UiTM Shah Alam give the highest exemptions for ACCA exams. Instead taking 14 papers, i will only need to sit for 5 papers, as 9 papers will be exempted. And if i further my degree in UM, or IIUM,or other universities, maybe only 5-8 papers will be exempted.

So, maybe insya Allah, i will finish my study when i 24-25 y/old. And after only that i can work. So perhaps i will only get married at 26-27 y/old. Ahha, it is a long journey for me. 

Well, wish me good luck oke?

p/s : still confused whether to choose ACCA or CIMA and sorry if my english not so good ;)

Alone by myself.

Lately selalu terasa kesunyian.

Hp pun jarang berbunyi, kalo berbunyi pun bunyi alarm je selalu. 

Selalu tunggu mssg masuk, tp tak pernah masuk. 

Agaknya sampai bila kena tggu mcm ni? 

Kadang-kadang jeles tgk roomate sume hp asek berbunyi je.
Lebih-lebih lg kalo dengar bunyi mssg masuk.

Mmm.. even dah setahun berlalu, tp masih tak biasa dgn keadaan mcm ni.

Ya Tuhan, aku memohon kepadamu, ko hilangkan lah rasa kesunyian dlm diri ini.

Aku pohon kepada-Mu Ya Allah.

Engkau tabahkan lah hati ini. 

Jangan lah Engkau biarkan hati ini berasa cemburu mahupun berasa dengki atau iri hati terhadap kebahagiaan org lain. 

Aku bersyukur di atas segala yg aku perolehi selama ini.

Amiinnnn..

p/s : jeles tgk awak da pergi CosmoWorld dgn si dia, 

saya tak berkesempatan nak pergi sana dgn awak dulu.
Pape pun, saya gembira tgk awak bahagia walaupun saya terluka disini.

Tsunami in Japan? Masya Allah .

Pray for Japan

Di kala kita masing-masing bergembira di Malaysia, rakyat di Jepun dalam keadaan huru-hara, dan berasa ketakutan disebabkan gempa bumi yang tersangat besar - terburuk sejak 1900 - 8.9 SR serta mengakibatkan tsunami berskala 8.4 melanda negara mereka petang td. Berita ini sgt mengejutkan, ili yg bgtahu ila ptg td. Then cepat-cepat ila tgk dekat internet, memang betul ili ckp. Tak sangka, selama ni hujan turun mencurah-curah lately, sampai banjir dekat KL, dan hari ini, tsunami menimpa Jepun. Dengar cerita, Tokyo tenggelam. Betul ke? Masya Allah.

* setakat jam 5:00 petang waktu Malaysia...8 maut...angka tidak rasmi....

* Sistem pengangkutan di Jepun terhenti..

* Pantai barat AS di arah berjaga-jaga..

* Setakat jam 8:00 malam 44 orang terkorban.

Apakah kiamat sudah dekat?

Begitu byk petanda-petanda kecil yg kelihatan sejak 2 menjak ni, bencana-bencana yg berlaku, sungguh dahsyat sekali.

Kita hanya mampu berdoa agar rakyat Malaysia dan rakyat Jepun yg berada di sana, moga berada dalam keadaan selamat. Dan sama-samalah berdoa untuk mereka yang terlibat dlm bencana ni supaya dipermudahkan urusannya. Amiinnn..

korang boleh tengok lebih lanjut di link ni...

1. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-12709598
2. http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/newsindex.php?id=570243
3. http://www.ocimnet.com/2011/03/tsunami-hits-north-eastern-japan-after.html 
4. http://blogs.wsj.com/japanrealtime/2011/03/11/live-blog-japan-earthquake/

Ngeri betul bila tgk video-video ni. Astaghfirullah.

Sumber: Bardbahtiar.com & Mummycute.com 

NajwaLatif is awesome !

Hey guys and girls !

Nampak tak banner atas tu? tu tu !

Her name is Najwa Latif, and she is so talented in singing !

Wuwu~ and guess what? She is only 16y/old !

It is so amazing kannnnn???

Suara dia sgt sedappppp!

Suka sgt dengar!

Bila dengar suara this girl kan, tibe2 teringat dekat Yuna.

Eventhough suara dyeorg tak sama, tp tah nape tibe2 teringat kt Yuna.

Maybe sebab 2-2 pandai main gitar kot.

Ngeeee :)

teringin gak nak main gitar.

Tp nnty jari jd kasar and besar la plak. hahah :P

Oke, disni ila sertakan sekali Blog NajwaLatif and her Youtube,

1. http://www.najwalatifs.blogspot.com/ 
2. http://www.youtube.com/user/najwa595

K la, mls cerita pnjg-pnjg, jom kita tgk You Tube cik Najwa kita ni:

See, berbakat kan this girl? :)

p/s : boleh tak ila nak tujukan lg ni kt someone? 

boleh la boleh la. 

Ngeee , khas untuk AWAK!

You know who you are ;)

My FB Berwajah BARU !

tgk tgk ~!

FB ila dengan LAYOUT baru ! 

wuwu , jeles tak jeleas tak? :P

Baby Hilang !

 

Disebabkan tak pergi dinner faculty mlm ni, ila plan blk rumah this week.
And guess what?
I already arrived at home last nite.
Btolak pukul 4.50 ptg mcm tu dr Sri Iskandar Perak, sampai rumah around pukul 9.
Penat sesangat !

korang ingt tak ila ada post entry about i got a new kitten last year? Tak ingat?

Cuba tengok site ni:

http://surayafadhilah.blogspot.com/2010/11/new-cat.html

Yg plg sedihnya, Baby Cat HILANG semalam ! 

My mom ckp dye tak balik sejak kelmarin. Sob3.. :'(

My fav cat is missing, sedih nyaaaaa, dah la kucing tu tak pakai collar ke rantai ke, dulu pakaikan, tp tgk kesian dye mcm tercekik je, nmpk ketat je kt leher kucing tu, last-last x jadi la pasangkan.

Kalau hilang, mana org nk tahu tu kucing peliharaan ke kucing terbiar? tp mesti la boleh agak kan, kucing bela, sebab bulu lawa, bersih sume, wuwu ~

pesanan untuk Baby ;

BABY !!
BALIK LA !
ILA DAH BALIK RUMAH NI, NAK MAIN DGN BABY !
BYK BENDA NAK DICERITAKAN NI :'(

You have not seen the last of me

Feeling broken

Barely holding on

But there’s just something so strong

Somewhere inside me

And I am down but I’ll get up again

Don’t count me out just yet

I’ve been brought down to my knees

And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I’ll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven’t seen the last of me

They can say that

I won’t stay around

But I’m gonna stand my ground

You’re not gonna stop me

You don’t know me

You don’t know who I am

Don’t count me out so fast

You haven’t seen the last of me

There will be no fade out

This is not the end

I’m down now

But i’ll be standing tall again

Times are hard but

I was built tough

I’m gonna show you all what I’m made of

This is far from over

I am far from over

You haven’t seen the last of me

I’m not going nowhere

I’m staying right here

Oh no

You won’t see me begging

Can’t stop me

It’s not the end

You haven’t seen the last of me.

OMG !

Ohhhh, tidak !

My mom has discovered this blog !

Oh NOOOOOOO!

mcm mana ni?

byk bende yg diluahkan dlm blog ni, rasa tak puas hati,  gembira, sakit hati, makan hati, girang, cinta tak kesampaian sume, adoi (-_-")

ni yg rasa mcm nak hide blog ni je, ahha :P

Pernah Korang Kisah ???!

Hye semua, thanks because sudi baca entry kali ni. First of all ila just nak ckp, entry ni maybe akan buat korang terasa or rasa pape ke, sebab entry kali ni ila nak luahkan perasaan yg selama ni terpendam di sudut hati, tunggu masa je nk explode.

Minggu ni my faculty bakal mengadakan Dinner untuk meraikan budak-budak Part 6 (including me). Mula-mula plan nak buat dekat dalam UiTM je, last-last tukar buat kat luar. At first ila memang plan nak pergi dinner tu dgn ili, eventhough dekat dalam UiTM je,budak-budak sekelas pulak x nak join, sebab buat kt dalam. Tp bila buat kat luar, kami berdua malas pulak pergi, sebab tak de transport. Budak-budak kelas pulak excited gile sebab buat kt luar. Dorang takpe la, masing-masing ade kereta, kalo x de pun, mesti ade member yg bwk kereta. Eg: Group PUP's, dua org bwk kereta, group Melati, sorang bawak kereta. Group angsana&cemara,sorang bawak kereta. Yg ila ni mcm mane pulak? memang tak pernah ada group pun,selalu berdua je dgn ili, so kene la naik bas jawabnya.

So both of us decide, tak payah la pergi, lg pun last minute punye decision, dah la x de kasut, tudung semua. Budak-budak kelas ramai yg balik rumah last week, sebab masing-masing nk beli baju dinner, kate pun last sem kan, kene la pkai grand grand, x boleh da pakai mcm budak Part 1-part 5. Kononnya ingat nak tumpang Z je blk KL hari tu, nak beli baju dinner gak, tapi dye kate kereta penuh. Ramai yg nak tumpang. K fine. Sedangkan sorang je yg nak tumpang, ili je . Ila tak kesah, boleh je tinggal sorang-sorang kt UiTM ni. Lagi pun ibu jarang bagi balik 2-2, melainkan kalau tumpang orang, takde la pkai duit tambang sgt. 

Tadi dalam kelas, budak-budak sebok tanya, pergi tak dinner? Beriye bebenar nak suruh org pergi. Dorang senangla, dah balik rumah, masing-masing da ada kasut baru, baju baru, baju pinjam semua la. Orang kat sini lak mcm mana? Bile org ckp x de baju, kasut semua, boleh pulak suruh beli. Cik kak, event nye jumaat ni, nak beli bila pulak??? Dah la kelas sampai Khamis. And by the way, sekarang memang sengkek gile ! Duit ade RM40 je ni, untuk 2 orang punye belanja. Boleh tahan sampai bile je?? Kiteorg  ni 2 orang, kene jimat cermat, x pernah keluar Ipoh sejak balik cuti raya Cina lepas. Senang cerita hujung minggu kt sini tak pernah la nak enjoy. Yg dyeorang, dah la ada kereta, keluar je tiap-tiap minggu, berkaraoke, main bowling, tgk wayang, and mcm-mcm lg. Ila dgn ili ni dok terperap je la kt blik, lyn movie. And YOU KNOW WHAT? There is nobody bother! Tak de sape pun kisah psl kitoerang ! Betapa kesiannya kan? Roomate pulak asyik bz memangjang, selalu takde kat blik. Selalu kuar dgn bf (agaknye la) sebab member-member pun selalu ckp nampak dye dgn bf dye. selalu sgt. Tak kisah la bout her. Its her life, kiteorg tak boleh la nak bising-bising. 

Oh ye, 1 more thing, kepada sesiapa yg berkenaan, jgn la nak tunjuk baik dgn kami berdua, mentang-mentang kiteorang tak pergi dinner, baru sebok-sebok nak ajak kiteorg. Selama ni, dinner-dinner last sem, sepanjang 5 kali dinner kt sini, tak pernah pulak nak kisah kan kiteorang ada ke tak. Ada pernah korang kisah? Kiteorang duduk pun bersepah-sepah masa pergi dinner2 last sem. Agak-agak ade meja kosong, duduk je. Selalu duduk dgn senior part5, junior la, last sem je duduk dgn Zairah. Tu pun sebab dye dtg lmbt, dye pun duduk dgn kiteorang berdua. Yg korang semua? Masing-masing nak duduk dengan member2 sendiri dekat 1 meja. Kiteorang dtg ke tak dinner, mane korang nak tawu?

Selama ni ila diam je kan. diam je, memang terasa mcm disisih, pergi kelas pun jalan kaki, blk pun jln kaki. Yg lain semua sebok tumpang kereta budak2 sekelas.  Kami ni kalo ade yg baik hati, kereta kosong, baru la nak bg tumpang. (Muka tak malu). terasa sgt .. Selalu dipinggirkan. Hujung minggu pun berdua je dlm bilik, sedangkan orang lain bersuka ria kt Ipoh. Time dgn Persida dulu pun mcm tu. Dalam byk-byk pompan Part5, ila je la yg selalu diketepikan. Kalau keluar Ipoh, selalu ditinggalkan. Maybe ila memang jrg keluar Ipoh, thats y korang pun mcm x kesah je kan. Korang tak kenal, ila dekat perak dgn KL memang ketara beza gile! Ila tak mcm ni, kalo kt KL, selalu merayap. Kt Ipoh, mcm mati kutu. Tatawu nak buat ape kt sini, sebab kawan pun mcm tak de je. Mentang-mentang kiteorang kembar, korang ingt kiteorang dgn dunia kiteorang je, tak kesah dgn orang lain. Mane ada ! Tipu la kalo kiteorg ckp kiteorang pun nak bejalan ramai-ramai jugak, makan lunch ramai-ramai(ni tak, 2-2 mkn sendrik2 dlm bilik).

And ila rasa kalau ade yg rapat pun, Hamizah je, koz dye selalu dtg bilik, tanya soalan-soalan. Agaknya kalo ila x rajin belajar, result tak segempak mane, nak ke dye dtg bilik tanye soalan sume? tak kot kan?

Sorry la kalo ade sesape yg terasa, dah last sem kt Perak ni, baru ila nak luahkan semua yg terpendam dlm hati ni. sebab ila rasa sunyi sgt, kosong je dlm hati ni, ila memang tak sanggup nak sambung degree kt sini, tah ape la yg jadi agaknya, x best lgsung life kt sini. Harap-harap la ila dpt sambung kt Shah Alam. Boleh buat kwn baru kt sane. Start a new life there, fine a new bf there. Perhaps la kot... sampai sini saje luahan hati ila kali ni. Mintak maaf sgt-sgt sebab terpaksa luahkan kt sini, sbb x de sape lg dah yg mampu dengar luahan hati ni, Masing-masing org yg tersayang dah menjauhkan diri, sebok dgn life masing-masing, dgn g/f and b/f masing-masing. Tinggal la sorang-sorang, nak luahkan kt ili pulak, dye bukannye jenis yg boleh mendengar sgt, Kang dye jerit, dah la, tak nak denga, mls nk denga.

Mm.... sekian.